this blogger is experiencing another worse downtown in his life , already sacrifices have been made on his part, but there are outside elements that forces him to sacrifice more, just for ? results in A lvl

well u can say its for ur own good , but look @ it, i am not happy with the way they deal the matter. They use stupid analogies like " You should be lucky that u have a computer, those people in the poor nations ( 3rd world ) dun even have ! "

if u dare say so, den why dun we dun cook. just cook a bowl of rice for each member lo " 'cos you rather cook so much, in the end get thrown into the dustbin ? moreover Sg 's gonna be a rubbish city , it helps !!! u throw lesser garbage into the bin u know"

dumb excuses

now i wan to be alone and do my stuffs and studying. I wan to enjoy and study @ the same time, i can't 24/7 be an asshole and sit there read words. IT WON'T WORK damn it !

you sit there lo... u jsut read lo... u dun internalise only .... well u can say i dun care about my future , not optimistic... com'on .... think... if u in the 1st place refuse to be sensitive to my feelings and stuffs den forget it !
my leisure activites (only gaming) is now being TAKEN away..... well where's the TV ?? tt's my sacrifice i have already made lo.... i do only selective watching .... only watch things that are useful for my exam... tts all ....

one example ... this morning .... the show " Oprah Winfrey" excellent.... touched me... and moved me to tears ... look @ this case of this poor mum... around age 40 but looks 50 already.... fostering over 40 children and still presently fostering 10 children

but hey wad happened ? the owner of the house says he wanna sell the house away. Immediately, this family of 12 had only 3 weeks to leave the house and FIND another one ... mind u ... how to??? they are such a poor family !!

a neighbour (thank God) wrote in to Oprah Winfrey and said .... help her....

look @ her... she is already so hagged .... hair forever messy ... and yet she wanna do much for her kids

the results : 2 companies offered a 100 thousand cash cheque for the taylor's family , 30 thousand for their expenses to get by... AND .... a major electric franchise... gave her all the furniture she needed from a TV (flat screen mind u ) , sofa.... to a TABLE ... of 10 people.... and even a DISH washer !!

when u really watch the show... it will definately move u to tears

and look @ here my life ... its too pathetic.... i need to sacrifice more for results ???

u know wad my dad said ? " Show me the results ! "

i no need to give him the reply ... i only need to say this ... if u wanna be such an asshole so be it .... u are willing to exchange RESULTS for ur own son's well-being .... den i think tt's too bad lo .... results-orientated huh ?

u can say " use this as ur motivational factor" ... pls.... i already wanna give up soon... u think i have this X-factor to help me ?

It's a deja vu.... for me.... esp when its the same case as O lvl.. but this is worse.... i gonna hate my parents about it....

my opinion is this.... @ the end of the exams... so wad if i get the results to enter the uni.... so wad... i won't be a happy person in the 1st place ....i feel that other people are way enjoying their life to the fullest.... look @ me.... i'm already a unkempt person and already having so much depression and bottled up so much things ....

look.... i have already been "betrayed" by my own friends... @ times i really wonder... wad happen... consultation they just went without asking me... and wad's the reason ? " cos u normly dun stay in sch de ma .... u would go home de " .... huh ? this is not an excuse leh ... if u really treat me as friend ... u should already help each other... consultation we all go la... wad u doing ?

den i asked... so how many times le... "once" they replied to me ....
and another case i was so pissed....

GP ..... look @ this man.... the advice by our teacher ( unanimously agreed by every cell of my body ) was " read and read and read "

den look @ this .... my essay.... put so much bloody effort ... finally hit a C5 ... 1st time in my GP achievement for yr 2

but look in this case .... this student.... got a C5 too ! .... language saved her ... but hey .... look @ this ... the comments given was " well done ... it shows u are putting effort for ur subject ... keep up the good work !! =) "

den i asked her.... "eh... seriously... u really got put in work for gp ? "

the answer given was " no ... (haha<== by him/her)

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look @ this man... very unfair isn't it ?
people dun even WORK in gp ... still can get same grades....

i already made the sacrifices ... already done wad i can do... ultimately if i fail ... so be it....
my parents dun understand the feelings i am having... they still think " Oh... if u had stop gaming .... u would be doing well "

wad nonesence ... well den i might as well say " if u guys stop watching ur TVs ... u won't be speaking stupid things in front of me and giving ur dumb reasons"

u know wad kind of dumb things they said ?

1 ) " Phillippe ( my nephew) is getting cuter "

obviously in the right frame of mind... one will say cute-"ter" .... and not "CUT- TER "

dumb isn't it ? obviously the kid... or their grandson is not something to cut isn't it ? is so freaking obvious that they are dumb .... cuter becomes cutter... wad a joke.... silly joke.... if this was being showcased in the public forget it ... i already wan to bury my head underground ... or even maybe my body...

i already giving up on having family

2) the weird logics they give

the immigrants coming in to sg ( to my mum ) NO !!!! dun come ... they only here to get PR ... eg ... from her workplace this m'sian met this bf in sg... stay with him in his house .... den the guy doesn't look nice actually ... she says that he looks " dumb " and idiotic ....

my reply for her is this .... tt's only one pathetic case out of the many ... u can't just isolate them and declare them " unclean" den u gonna force them in ghettos ??? this is such a discrimination !! if people were u hear this... u will cause sg to be in a turmoil...

so wad if i could be true ? so wad? you dun have the evidences @ all ? its only based on ur own biased thinkings... so wad's there to discuss when u have a skewed thinking in lvl 1 already?

3) their behaviors ... sucks... real big time

shant' explicitly describe here... too disgusting .... one example .... u eat as if there's no more food tml ... u GOBBLE .... YUCKS .... u stuff and eat... the sound of gobbling is there

4) they think they know alot

actually they really missed out too much... 10 yrs difference from my brother and I ... obviously things have changed from a content based towards a thinking based... u think so ez to think ah ?

and really pissed off is this... imagine ur fav is shopping .... and den u have ur parents calling u in ur 2nd hour of shopping "when u coming back " ... eh... already spoil the mood la ...

TT's precisely the case im facing !
gaming only ... haven even complete the round ... and there they are "nagging and nagging "

eh... stfu can? leave me alone ?